None of that is new....

Not that this is new for me... this technique of watching other people's behaviors and analyzing it and coming to a certain core action that I deem responsible for creating a reaction... To be less myesterious, this is like when I see a great influencer who manages to make all people think he is sweet or a genius or whatever... I usually watch their behavior and realize some certain repetitive action or words that I can later use if I want to create the same effect..

Not that I have not been using the same technique with me in a way... I watch what I do, what works, what does not and sometimes I even write it down or formulate theories about me within a human nautre context..

And of course it is not that I am a novice with pain.... pain management, like change management is a science and I think I am good at it.  I twist it like 6 repetitive times, make a flip and voila...the pain sort of turns into laughter... but do not question me if it feels or tastes like laughter...

So, it is really not that any of the above is true... it is just that being experienced in all that does not necessarily protect your heart from pain... does not necessarily provide medical insurance to your wounds.. and doing it more and more neither provides an answer as to "how to do it" nor does it make it any easier..